Friday Feast 183

Appetizer
On a scale of 1-10 (with 10 as highest), how much do you like your own handwriting?
I'll be neutral and give it a 5. Some days it's great, other days not so much.

Soup
Do you prefer baths or showers?
I prefer showers. I hate baths. Even if I do take a bubble bath just to relax, I will take a quick shower after.

Salad
What was the last bad movie you watched?
I don't know what it was called, but it was some sci-fi type movie where they had to freeze the monster at the end. Probably a SciFi channel original.

Main Course
Name something you are addicted to and describe how it affects your life.
Dollar Store shopping. I really do love those stupid dollar stores. You can find everything there! Well, just about everything. I have quite a few bags from the dollar store that I have no idea what's in them. That's bad, I know.

Dessert
Which instrument is your favorite to listen to?
The piano. It's so versatile. It can be mellow, funky, jazzy or classical.

Ponder this...

Why do they call it quicksand if it sucks you down slowly?

If you're born again, do you have two belly buttons?

Need a good laugh?

Go visit Anonymous Boxer and his pack

Weekend Ketchup

I took the cue from Redneck Vamp to do a recap of my weekend. It's taken me almost all week to get it done...

Friday
You don't see that everyday...

Normally, my Friday starts at 5:30 AM. Okay, I hit snooze until 5:45 and then start my day.

Not today. Today was a special day. I got up at 4:40 AM, took my shower, threw on some clothes and was out the door by 5:20. Since I don't drive, I had to take at least 2 busses to the County hospital to be there by 7. I was out and about before Tim Horton's was open, and before most of the busses were running!

I've been waiting for this day for at least a semester and a half. Today was Autopsy Day!! So I meet up with some of my fellow students and we arrive at the hospital about 5 minutes before Instructor. He then informs us that there may not be an autopsy today.

OH HELL NO. I specifically broke the request off rule at work to see an autopsy. Dammit, if I have anything to say about it, there WILL be an autopsy today even if I have to provide the body. The last time I requested off, there was supposed to be a K9 demonstration which was cancelled. That's one of the things that really pisses me off. Don't tell me to be somewhere and then nothing happens, or it's cancelled. It's like when I'm taking applications for one of my apartments and they make an appointment - just to blow it off.

We went down to the Medical Examiner's office and we got lucky. Although, unlucky for the woman that happened to be on the table. She was a victim of her own stupidity, driving drunk and somehow flipped the car into a ditch.

The doctor was extremely efficient, the entire autopsy took about an hour. With very swift strokes of the scalpel, she was open in like 2 seconds. I think they took out her spleen first, or maybe it was her ovaries... I remember looking at the intestines and thinking "I'm not going to eat Italian sausage for a while..." Just like on TV, they weighed every organ. The liver is pretty big, I had no idea it was like that. She was very healthy, he let us know that every organ was the proper color and there was nothing wrong with any of them. Except the lungs. On average, our lungs should weigh about 300 kg (I hope it was kg). She had flipped her car into a ditch with about 2 feet of water in it and drowned. Since her lungs were full of water, they weighed baout 4 times as much. The brain was a pretty pinky color. The kidneys, liver, and lungs were pretty much the same color - that dark reddish brown.

Because she was not an organ donor, he put her organs into a biohazard bag. Those bags are NOT biodegradable. I asked because the bag was placed back into her body before they sewed her up.

Afterwards, a few of us went down to the Boulevard to do some shopping. Me, Senorita and Gimp went to the dollar store, the craft stores, and Party City. We had to get stuff for our school's semester bash which is "sponsored" by our Campus Club. We're having a luau this semester, which is REALLY stupid cuz it's the day after St. Patty's day. It drives me nuts because I'm the President and they all just went along with the luau. No one really suggested anything else.


Saturday
"Today's forecast...

calls for blizzard like conditions. Be sure to stay indoors, folks." And where can one find Kiki? Out in the shit. Trying to make her way to the bus stop to get to Dollie's house for dinner and a movie. Because we couldn't wait to see each other any longer.

It wouldn't have been so bad if I hadn't missed my first bus and then had to walk through 6 inches of slush and snow. I wouldn't have missed my first bus if I had gotten ready like 10 minutes earlier. Except for the fact that everyone all of a sudden just HAD to talk to me. WTF! No phone calls ALL week. Then BLAM-O. The little fucker's ringing off the hook. I took the next bus, which would leave me way short of walking distance to her house. She had to send Daddy-O to pick me up from the last stop. My hero!!

My beautiful wife Dollie is a great cook! We had cranberry chicken, cheesy scalloped potatoes and sugared baby carrots. For dessert, we had homemade marble cheesecake. We didn't get to watch any movies, but we looked through her extensive collection because I've never seen Silence of the Lambs (or any other Hannibal related movies). I was going to borrow them, but got distracted with her computer (it's having issues) and forgot to grab the movies.

I was supposed to go hang out with Paisan today, but she won't drive in this weather. I don't blame her. A day fit for neither man nor beast, but you'll find one crazy Kiki out there!!


Sunday
Ahhh...

Not much got done on Sunday. Just went and did a bit of grocery shopping and spent time with M. He likes it when I do that. :)

Another Stolen Meme

I stole this one from the lovely Vixen, who stole it from I Smile 2 much.

1. Did the last person you held hands with mean anything?
Yes, otherwise I wouldn't hold his hands.

2. Do you sleep with the TV on?
I used to, but lately it drives me nuts.

4. Do you think you’re old?
Nope. I'm the oldest kid I know. Most of my friends at school are younger than me and they are always amazed when I remind them that I'm older.

5. Are you afraid of the dark?
Depends on whose dark I'm in...

6. Do you like your life right now?
Life is good. I have a job, I have my family, I have friends.

7. When’s the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
I hate baths. Even if there is no shower head, I'll stand up and use a cup.

8. Do you knock on wood?
As often as I can ;)

9. Do you have good vision?
When I’m wearing my glasses, you’re damn straight I do! Hahaha….. *ahem* (couldn't have said this better mahself!)

What happened to 10?

11. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I already have. It took a LOT of "soul-searching" to forgive him.

12. Do you have a job?
Yes. I like my job, but I can't see myself there for more than a year or two and even that's pushing it.

13. Who’s your best friend…..sss?
That would be Paisan, Z, Dollie Jo, Rockabilly Red, Jade, and Senorita.

15. Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
Yes, I've been suspended for fighting. More than once.

16. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Nope.

17. What should you really be doing right now?
Sleeping.

18. Can you handle the truth?
I can handle it. I dish it out, so it's only fair that I take it.

19. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Tempura paints and 4 rolls of paper.

20. Are you listening to music?
Not at the moment.

21. Where are you?
On my bed, supposed to be sleeping - remember? ;)

22. How often do you talk on the phone?
A lot at work. Otherwise, I really hate talking on the phone. Email or text me instead.

23. Do you have a boyfriend?
Nope.

26. Do you hate more than 3 people?
I try not to hate people, but there is at least one person that I truly do hate.

27. Have you ever tripped someone?
Why? What did you hear? Seriously, I've never tripped anyone. Really.

28. Name one thing that is always on your mind.
SEX. Shoes. SEX. Blogging. SEX. Sleeping. SEX.

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
No, but I try to be creative when I answer the phone.

33. Are you sarcastic?
Not me... (sarcastically)

34. Have you ever slapped someone?
Nope.

36. Do you use chapstick?
Yes, just plain ol' Cherry Chapstick.

37. Are you too forgiving?
It depends on the situation. If you ask the kiddles, they'd say no. Ask M, he'd say yes.

TMI Tuesday #126

1. Is sex hotter for you when it's forbidden? Or do you get wracked with guilt and it's not enjoyable?
Forbidden sex is much hotter! For me forbidden sex is having sex in the bathroom while we have guests in the other room!

2. Are casual sexual encounters fulfilling to you? Do you need an emotional commitment from your partner for sex to be fulfilling?
I've had very few casual sexual encounters. They meant nothing to me, so I guess I need some emotional equivalent attached to sex.

3. Do you think that with all of the online dating sites that cater to every fetish and desire and places like craigslist that it's more difficult to make a commitment and/or stay committed to your partner?
I think that online dating is dangerous. You never know what type of people you're going to meet. I think it's important in this day and age to be extremely selective of people that you get involved with.

4. Have you ever joined or participated in an online dating site? If not, would you ever consider it? What about a fetish site, such as alt.com?
I've never joined or participated in online dating sites. I've looked at alt.com, but it doesnt really interest me.

5. What is the weirdest fetish you've heard of?
They may not be the weirdest, but definitely out of range for me. Bestiality, infant/wearing diapers, and shit play.

Bonus (as in optional): The definition of 'fetish' is so vague. Do you think you have a fetish(s)? If so, do you want to share what it is? ;)
I suppose everyone has some sort of 'fetish'. Personally, I feel mine are more of the everyday garden variety. Leather, biting, spanking, hair pulling, bondage. I don't need them, but do enjoy them.

Stolen Meme

Stole this from the lovely Bunny.

What is your occupation?
Meat Popsicle

What color are your socks right now?
Black

What are you listening to right now?
My customer, and co-workers typing

What was the last thing that you ate?
Ham and provolone sandwich with mustard, tortilla chips and homemade cheesecake

Can you drive a stick shift?
No. I tried once and kept stalling out.

If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
PURPLE!

Last person you spoke to on the phone?
My customer

Do you like the person who you stole this from?
Yes, she is very intelligent and has a great sense of humor. I love reading her blog :)

Favorite drink?
Cranberry Sprite
Raspberry Crystal Lite
Coffee
Beer

What is your favorite sport to watch?
Real sport: Hockey
Sort-of sport: that Japanese style craziness. I think its called MXC

Have you ever dyed your hair?
Yep. I've had burgundy hair, black hair and blonde hair.

Pets?
a sweet 3 year old furball named Dusty. I guess you can count the DNA Sponsor as well, since I feed him and provide shelter. Sometimes I chastise him like I would the cat. :)

Favorite food?
Potatoes

Last movie you watched?
Volcano with Tommy Lee Jones

Favorite Day of the year?
Halloween

What do you do to vent anger?
Swear. A LOT

What was your favorite toy as a child?
Legos that made space ships and trucks and planes.

What is your favorite, fall or spring?
I love them both equally.

Hugs or Kisses?
Cherry Cordial Kisses - YUMMY!! I don't like Hugs, especially the ones with white chocolate

What kind of pie?
Cherry

Living arrangements?
A cracker box is bigger than my house. 3 adults, 2 kiddles, 1 cat, and too much craft stuff. All in about 600 square feet of space. Gets a bit crowded.

When was the last time you cried?
I think it was a few weeks ago.

What is on the floor of your closet?
I don't have a closet.

Favorite smell?
Fresh bread

What inspires you?
Nature.

What are you afraid of?
Dying in a raging fire.

Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers?
Spicy cheese burgers

Favorite car?
any car, since I don't drive

Favorite cat breed?
I like all cats.

Number of keys on your key ring?
3

Number of loyalty or reward cards on your key ring?
3

How many years at your current job?
Less than 1 year.

Favorite day of the week?
It used to be Saturday, but now I have to go to my boring class and it makes Saturdays sucky.

How many states have you lived in?
1

How many countries have you visited?
2 (Bahamas and Canada)

Plane, Train, or Automobile?
Ok, I'm not fun to travel with if it's more than a 2 hour trip. So based on that statement, it's going to be plane.

Quiz Time!!

A brilliant bolt of lightning descends! SHAZAAM! The oracle has spoken!

The smoke clears to reveal that inside you is a divine being,

the Goddess ATHENA.

You're a powerful woman who knows what she wants and just how to get it. Of all the deities, you come closest to the modern woman. Strong and sensual, you're someone who doesn't shy away from a challenge. In fact, it's precisely the challenge that excites you. You have no tolerance for traditional gender roles, so seduction is your specialty. You probably have no problem being the aggressor, nor do you mind being in control of a relationship. In bed, you might even take the lead and make sure that nothing's over until you are thoroughly satisfied. Your self-confidence and security have allowed you to use your sexuality exactly the way that pleases you. Your lovers undoubtedly sense your inner divinity and worship your ways. You demand and receive respect from whomever you decide to bed. And like a light from the heavens, your partner discovers your true inner nature.

Behold, the skies proclaim, here lies a goddess!

Mute Monday - March

Tagged again!

The lovely Amorous Rocker has tagged me again!

Here are the rules...
1. Pick up the nearest book, of at least 123 pages.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the next three sentences.
5. Tag five people.


I happen to have an encyclopedia type book next to me.

The topic on this page is American Art.

The first was portaiture designed to keep alive the memory of great or wealthy person. The second was folk art practiced by a wide varitey of craftsmen who made items such as weathervanes, furniture, quilting, and other useful items. A handful of untrained folk painters were also at work, porducing flat two-dimensional portraits, often of women or children.

I am going to leave this one open for whoever wants to do it, just leave me a comment so I can come look at what ya wrote!

Friday Feast 182

Appetizer
If you could be any current celebrity for one whole week, who would you want to be?
While she's not a celebrity here, I'd want to be Vanessa Paradis. She gets to see Johnny Depp nekkid.

Soup
On a scale of 1-10 (with 10 being highest), how much do you enjoy talking on the phone?
I give it a 1. I really don't enjoy talking on the phone all that much, since I that's what I do all day at work.

Salad
Name a charitable organization to which you have donated (or would like to).
I used to donate to the United Way. I can't afford to at the moment...

Main Course
What is a food you like so much you could eat it every single day for a month?
Instant mashed potatoes.

Dessert
Have you or anyone in your family had the flu this year?
I don't think so.

I love TAG!!!

The Amorous one has tagged me!! I love these things :)

I give you money and send you into the grocery store to pick up 5 items. You can only pick one thing from the following departments, what is it?

1. Produce: Green seedless grapes
2. Bakery: Crusty Italian bread
3. Meat: Chicken
4. Frozen: Ice Cream
5. Dry goods: Pasta


Let's say we're heading out for a weekend getaway. You're only allowed to bring 3 articles of clothing with you. So, what's in your bag?

1. My blanket. I can't sleep without it.
2. Clean undies.
3. T-Shirt.


If I was to listen in on one of your conversations throughout the day, what 4 phrases or words would I be most likely to hear?

1. Click on Start, then go to Control Panel.
2. Fucking moron.
3. Hey babe, what's up wichyoo?
4. Will you fucking quit? I said STOP. I don't know if I took my happy pill today.

So, what 4 things do you find yourself doing every single day, and if you didn't get to do, you probably wouldn't be in the best mood?

1. Brush my teeth. I hate morning breath.
2. Take a shower. I like being clean.
3. Check my crafty web sites.
4. Take my happy pill.

You're driving down the road, and suddenly you're hit with this sense of road rage. What 3 factors probably contributed to it?

(I don't drive, so I'll just pretend)

1. People who don't use the free options that come with the car. Like the TURN SIGNALS and the BRAKE. They aren't just pretty little decorations on the fucking car, people!
2. People that are coming from the off ramp and decide they need to be in the far left turning lane to get fucking Tim Horton's nasty coffee, so they cut across 4 lanes of traffic.
3. Getting cut off by some idiot trying to weave around and get somewhere faster by driving like an idiot when really, they end up right the fuck in front of me or one whole car ahead of me after all their stunt driving. (I couldn't have said this one better)


Sweet, you just scored a whole afternoon to yourself. We're talking a 3 hour block with nobody around. What 5 activities might we find you doing?

1. Taking a nice long hot bubble bath.
2. Working on some type of craft.
3. Attempting to straighten out my crafting area in my house.
4. Sleeping
5. Playing Tomb Raider or Sims.


We're going to the zoo. But, it looks like it could start storming, so it'll have to be a quick visit. What 3 exhibits do we have to get to?

1. Sea lions.
2. Polar Bears
3. Monkeys.


You just scored tickets to the taping of any show that comes on t.v. of your choice. You can pick 4, so what are you going to see?

1. HOUSE.
2. Lost.
3. CSI.
4. Sara Connor Chronicles.


You're hungry for ice cream. I'll give you a triple dipper ice cream cone. What 3 flavors can I pile on for ya?

1. Kahlua Almond Espresso.
2. Strawberry.
3. Cake batter.


Somebody stole your purse/wallet…in order to get it back, you have to name 5 things you know are inside to claim it. So, what's in there?

1. Dolphin key holder.
2. Happy Bunny skull & crossbones fat little notebook.
3. My qacking ducky keychain light.
4. Black nail polish
5. Altoids tin with Tums in it.


You are at a job fair, and asked in what areas you are interested in pursuing a career. Let's pretend you have every talent and ability to be whatever you wanted, so what 4 careers would be fun for you?

1. Forensics.
2. Mortician.
3. Astronomer.
4. Photographer.

If you could go back and talk to the old you, when you were in high school, and inform yourself of 4 things, what would you say?

1. Keep your mouth shut. Trust me.
2. Find happiness, be more sociable. And find a different date to your senior prom.
3. Your sophomore crush is probably gay, don't even bother wasting your time.
4. Work harder in your studies, you are going to regret your choice of college.

I tag:

Anonymous Boxer
Moi
Kate
Polt

I won't be offended if ya decide not to do this. I just think they happen to be fun :)

4 things....

4 jobs that I have had

• Truck stop waitress
  
• Cashier
• Door-to-door Environmentalist
  
• Tech Supports
  

4 of my favorite films

• Bubble Boy (the one with Jake Gylenhaal)
  
• The Fifth Element
  
• 300
• Friday
  

4 TV shows

• CSI (Las Vegas)
  
• Sara Connor Chronicles
  
• Lost
  
• Family Guy
  

4 places I have lived

• My parent's house
  
• My first apartment
  
• My first apartment with M
  
• My house now with the Fam
  

4 favorite foods

• Chips and Salsa
• Gyros with Tzatziki
• Pasta Salad
  
• Chicken Wraps
  

4 favorite colors

• Black
• Purple
• Blue
• Yellow

4 places I'd rather be right now

• At home in my nice warm bed with M
  
• hanging out with my wife Dollie
  
• at the Chinese buffet
  
• the library
  

Your candy heart says: Chill Out

Something about Valentine's Day kind of bugs you, doesn't it? Maybe you think people should show their love every day, not just once a year -- or maybe you're just sick to death of watching happy couples get all mushy-gushy on each other. Everyone else might be in the mood for love, but not you. You'd rather just avoid the drama. We hope this candy heart puts you in a sweeter mood.

You're so evil, it's cute.

Aww, you think you're evil? That's adorable. We could just pinch your not-so-evil cheeks and pat your friendly little head. You seem like someone who feels massively guilty if you have even the slightest negative thought. If you were really evil, you'd lie, cheat, and hatch diabolical plans without feeling the slightest hint of remorse. It looks like your conscience is leading you down the "good" path, which is great? unless you're planning to take over the world someday.

This can't be right. Who makes these things up? Most of my friends are "normal", but even my not-so-normal friends think that something is wrong with me.

TMI Tuesday #125

1. Under what conditions would you kiss a stranger?
Kissing requires up close and personal space. I like strangers to stay out of my bubble. I guess I'd give a quick peck on the cheek on a dare. Tongue would require some money and a damn good looking person.

2. Who was the last person you sent a text message to? If you’ve never sent someone a text message, is there some reason
Probably my daughter, she loves to text and has a tendency of blowing up my phone. Before I learned how to text, I never sent them because I never saw the point of texting. Now I know better. :)

3. When was the last time you deliberately surprised someone?
It was Christmas time, when I made gift baskets for my beautiful wife Dollie and my lovely Rockabilly Red.

4. How often do walk somewhere (hopefully, other than the mailbox)?
I walk just about everywhere. I don't drive and don't particularly want to drive. There are occasions **edited to add the rest of my sentence** when I could really use a car, but I'd still walk.

5. What were the longest and shortest durations of your romantic relationships?
The shortest was two weeks and the longest has been almost 18 years.

Bonus (as in optional):
What is missing from your life.
A backbone - to get the DNA sponsor out of my house
Time alone with M, away from kiddles and the DNA sponsor
A bit lot more patience.
The winning Lottery ticket.

Other than those things, life is good. I have a family that loves me (and I love them). I have a roof over my head, food in the fridge, friends that I adore and the ability to get an education.

Mute Monday - Writing/Writers/Write

(images above added after submission to Mute Monday)

Happy Leap Year!

Friday Feast 181

Appetizer
Who was the last person you hugged?
I think it was one of the kiddles.

Soup
Share a beauty or grooming trick or tip with us.
Don't use a trowel to apply your makeup.

Salad
What does the color yellow make you think of?
Sunflowers. Smiley faces. Happiness. Sunshine.

Main Course
If you were to make your living as a photographer, what subject would your pictures revolve around?
I think I'd like to take pictures of everyday people.

Dessert
What was the longest book you ever read?
Probably one by Stephen King, like The Stand.

Brains

TMI Tuesday #124

1. What can you consider as the greatest thing you've ever done for/ to yourself?
Sticking my tongue out. Most of my job-related stress disappeared at that exact moment. Monetary stress did increase a bit though...

2. What/ Which part of your life you think you could have done better and why?
I think I would handle the time before the whole M/SkankWhore thing better. I don't regret the way I did things at the time it all happened. I might have done a few things differently, like go to a counselor for my depression.

3. Do you have that one person whom you consider to be the wind beneath your wings?
I have 2. My kids. Whenever I felt like I was gonna lose it, I thought of them. For as much as we get snarky with each other, they are my rocks.

4. Tell us about your longest relationship.
M is my longest "romantic" relationship. My friendships are the longest relationships. I've known my friend Z since second grade, and Paisan since sixth grade.

5. In a relationship, when do you get to that point of enough is enough?
I guess I haven't reached that point yet. I didnt have too many boyfriends, and the ones I did have only lasted about 2 weeks. M is the first to get passed that 2 week marker.

Bonus (as in optional):
What is that one intimate moment with someone you miss so much and what are you willing to risk to have another moment of it. ;)
I miss talking to Ernie. He was the only other man that I've truly loved. There were circumstances that wouldn't allow us to be together (my marriage to M) and he respected that. The one really special moment that sticks out in my mind is the time a bunch of us went out for drinks. It was almost closing time, and we all decided to head home. He gave me an extra special good bye. I would not risk anything for another moment with him, I will be happy with my memories.

Mute Monday - Weird but Good

Pixel Notes

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Cat Hair Toys

Friday Feast 180

Appetizer
Have you ever played a practical joke on anyone? If so, what did you do and who was your victim?
I don't remember if I've ever successfully pulled off a prank. Usually, things like that backfire on me so I try not to do them.

Soup
What do your salt and pepper shakers look like?
Which ones? I have a lot of salt & pepper shakers. I collect them. I have ones that look like Mickey and Minnie, ones that look like apples, ones that look like garlic, turkeys, bunnies, halloween ones, christmas ones, crystal ones,

Salad
Where is the next place you plan to visit (on vacation or business)?
I'd like to go to Hawaii.

Main Course
What kind of lotion or cream do you use to keep your hands from getting too dry?
I think I have eczema like my son. My fingers used to get really dry just in the winter, but for the past few years they are extremely dry and cracked all year long. It hurts. Lately, I've been using Johnson and Johnson First Aid Skin Crack ointment. It's kinda greasy at first, but it does help. I'm open to suggestions...

Dessert
Make up a dessert, tell us its ingredients, and give it a name.

Shit Balls

2 boxes (12 oz ea.) vanilla wafers, crushed
2 cups chopped pecans or walnuts
½ cup unsweetened cocoa
2 cups confectioner’s sugar
1 cup dark rum
2 cups light or dark corn syrup
1 bag chocolate chips

Stir vanilla wafer crumbs, nuts, confectioner’s sugar, cocoa, and chocolate chips . Starting with half the rum and half the corn syrup, Gradually stir in liquids, adding a little at a time.

Stir together and check the consistency. When you can roll the mixture into a 1 inch ball, don't add any more rum or syrup. You may not have to use all the liquids, and you don't want the balls to be too sticky.

Shape into 1 inch balls.
Makes approximately 9 dozen.

Whacked Out Wednesday

It's been a while since I posted my Mute Monday and TMI late in the day. I have good reason. I called off work on Monday. My stomach hurt a bit, but to be honest I just really didn't feel up to a day of stupidity. I'm glad that I did stay home.

When the Boy was born, he changed my life. My mother had always told me of the magic of the bonding that occurs immediately after delivery. Even though he is the first born, I did not get that experience until Baby Girl was born 16 months later. The Boy was born with a very rare birthmark, never seen by anyone at the hospital where he was born. He has the correct number of toes, fingers and eyes. But because his birthmark is a medical conundrum, they immediately took him to the NICU and I did not get to bond with him.

Nevertheless, the Boy was my world. Such a sweet little ham that loved having his picture taken. He couldn't speak yet, but as soon as he saw that camera he would strike a pose. Everything was so simple back then.

Now that he is a teenager, things are WAY different. I expected his teen years to be rough, but I never expected this. I allow the kiddles to use my computer and go online. Usually, they go to myspace. Even though I wasn't feeling well, I needed to post my Mute Monday pics. There is a lovely little feature of IE7 that just happened to come in handy this past Monday. It's called History, and the kiddles don't know about it.

I see google searches for Jessica Biel and Alyssa Milano nude pics. No big deal, the Boy is at the age where he should be looking at tits-n-ass. Then I see this: Suicide.com WTF!?!?

I show M, and we both go talk to the Boy. Dammit. I should have paid more attention. I know what the signs are - withdrawing into the video games, mood swings, staying in his room all day. He said he feels lonely even when he is around other people. He told Baby Girl that he "has secrets that will go to the grave" with him. He's 17. What kinds of secrets is he going to have?!

Things have been scrambling around my brain since Monday. I don't know what to say to him. He doesn't feel comfortable talking to me or M. We gave him a hotline number, but don't know if he has called it. The point is, I know what he is feeling. I was there once, and it took a while to come back from that. I know that it doesn't matter what anyone says, those feelings are still going to be there. They might even stay even if he does go to a counselor.

TMI Tuesday #123

1. Which one turns you on more Ink or piercing? Why?
I love the look of both, if done right. I love the look of ink, to me it is a work of art. I know that some people just run out and get it done without any thought given to it. It's more beautiful when there is some personal meaning behind a tattoo.

2. What ink do you have? If none, what would you get and and where?
I don't have any yet. I'm not sure what I'm going to get. For a while, it was going to be the Boy's name surrounded by dragon wings on my left inner wrist and Baby Girl's name with butterfly wings on my right inner wrist. I have designed an elemental pentagram tattoo for myself, but cannot seem to find the right image for Spirit.

3. What piercing do you have? If none, what would you get and and where?
My lobes are pierced once, I have one higher up on my right ear and my nose is pierced.

4. Any other adornments you like to do for your lover or have then do for you?
I think M is wary of any adornments on himself. I would consider nipple piercings.

5. Of all of the above is there anything that is an immediate Turn-Off?
Too many facial piercings. One or two is fine.

Bonus (as in optional): If money/work place rules/your life/whatever what ALL would you do to your body in the name of sexual or just general adornment? For a while, work would not allow anything "wild" like odd colored hair (I want purple). They couldnt say too much when I got my nose done. At least not to my face. Other than that, I guess I am happy with my existing adornments, or lack of.